I have to add.. the relationship all together got physicial. I also hit first and hit back. The one thing I do defend is that I never felt violent or had any violent thoughts towards him or another human being before our relationship and before he hit me that first time. I am NOT at all in any danger. We live with his family and the entire family, unfortunately is well aware of the situation considering the noise and the yelling. He doesn't beat me but we do knock eachother around pretty hard sometimes. Either way it's an aweful unhealthy siuation to be in and I realize we'll do no good for eachother continuing on this way. So like I said, I know what the right thing to do is, I'm just scared. Not of him.. but of me alone.
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