Ok so heres the story so far I got married to the love of my life two years ago, shortly after I got very very ill, then I had a miscarriage, then appendicitis wich resulted in surgery and shortl after that i had another miscarriage and more surgery for that. after all that in such a short space of time i shut down so did my husband and i went to stay with my mum for four months which gave me time to sort myself out, i thought my husband would do the same but what he did instead was nothing short of miraculous.... wait for it........ yes thats right folks he done absolutly nothing, which is fine because we can talk and work through it together which i am now strong enough to do. however the thing is that because i was ill i couldn't work so he's been making all the money which before we seperated he was fine with but in the last month he went to a golf weekand which cost hundreds and bought numerous dvd's in the meantime i started working again but won't get paid till the end of the month. since i moved in he has been really weird about it, he keeps refering to things in the house as "his" or "mine", he gave me a lecture about turning off the computer charger at night cause "i pay the bills" I explained how this made me feel and he said he was sorry but tonight after i came home at half twelve at night after a ten hour shift I said that i was too tired to make anything to eat and might grab a cheeseburger out of mcdonalds he then told me that we couldn't afford it, when he saw my face he huffed then asked if it was just the burger or was it a meal that i wanted. I felt so low and pathetic i ended up in silent tears, just before he went to bed he said there was money on the table if i wanted to go. I've never not worked until last year, i've always had my own money and now i can't even get a freakin cheeseburger from the man who supposedly loves me. i feel worthless! why did i come back to this? Am i over-reacting? am i just being over-sensitive?
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