Been in this relationship for 11 yrs.and the past 6 hasn't been that great,i deal w/ depression and pre-menopause,ansomnia,low self-asteem,and lonliness.Iam 2000 miles away from home and been here in Az. for 11 yrs. I dont have many friends here i have 4 children, 2 in Ill. and 2 here w/ me and I miss my family especially family gatherings and outings.I feel my boyfriend doesn't understand me and i will express myself to him, to help him understand and all i get is torment,that will chande your heart and feelings, when the one that should be the most understanding, is the one who is always cutting you down, sooner or later a person is going to get fed up and i would rather just be alone. but with 2 small children, i just can't get up and go, where would i go, i dont work,i have no money, so for now i just isolate in my room so i dont have o deal w/him and at this point we really have nothing in common,thank God for 4 t.v. in the house, we again dont like each others programs, i feel i'm just buying time until that i can feel emotionally better and get out and work and take my kids and move on.I'm just so angry inside rather then fight i just hide. I use to be in a womens suport group and I had 5 yrs of couseling due to addiction and I have been clean 8 yrs. and you think after battling addiction one would be happy in life to be able to live again...I dont know, I just could use some help rite now in my life.
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