my ex and I just had the break up conversation. now the situation is kind of complicated. He is on parole for drug charges, relapsed, turnhimself in, was rearrested and relased on conditions. He has to do a 12 step program, counselling, lost all cell phone priveldges, pretty much being watched at all times by his sister and parents to help him not slip up again.
our relationship starting turning sour because we weren't able to communicate. He was not able to express his feelings, so i nagged. We decided to stay together, but have space whie we worked on ourselves, but he was still shutting me out. so brings us to tonight, we had the talk and he says he can't have the pressure. Even just saying we were together, but taking space he felt he still had to please me. hes a people pleaser and said he coudln't take care of himself properly. I understand, as it makes sense. It's hard to let go, I mean we were in love. promise rings, etc..
so he wants to be friends, he wants to build our friendship and go from there.. he says his feelings for me are real and he wants a healthy relationship in the future. He literally can't go date anyone, and he said even if he could he wouldn't want to. He says if I need to go date I can, but know that he isn'tdoing that. I believe him, I was in the relationship, i know he can't communicate and he has a lot of issues to deal with. and trust to build. but is there hope? I mean he wants to build to something, but I keep thinking, if he loves me we would be doing this together, but in a sense we are but as friends? but if he really loved me why can't we just be together.. does this really work for people and they end up together in the end?? can you really start over and work towards something?
Does anyone have a recurring nightmare? Something that you have had over your lifetime? If you want to talk about it. It can make sense or it be just odd. I have had maybe three different ones during my life. One odd one is I never graduated college. LOL. I was stuck in highschool or something. I know its not a very bad one, but I have this nightmare every so often. I was a bad college student,...
My last post was in 2016 and I honestly feel as if it were yesterday ! I hope everyone here has been doing well. Hope everyone is safe and healthy with COVID-19 taking us by storm. Ive been through a lot since I last logged in. Firstly and worst of all, my sister, my best friend, died 2 days after my 28th birthday on 12-28-17. I was unfortunate enough to be the one who found her. Drug overdose....