I struggle with clinical depression as well as life threatening chronic illness. I just pulled out of my husband he's also depressed about some issues coming from his family(to much lesser extent.) It's hard to work, raise a child and have intimate life between commutes, illnesses, depression, chores and playing with the child. We've very happily in love, however, my feelings of low self-esteem and isolation come to play and burden our relationship. Why isolation and self-esteem is a complex issue related to being partially me being an immigrant. Just spoke to my best friend, also an immigrant about this. We agreed, although we seem pretty integrated into this society, we still dont belong. We came here as teenages. We dont quite belong to our culture fully, neither to American culture(presented by the media). We are somewhere in between. That's after 17 yrs of living in the state. Anyways, I'm dealing with trying not to compare my marriage and family to other families, that I perceive as "more successful" whether they get more sex, go on vacations, have no illnesses or ideal wedding, or whatever. It's hard to quit comparing. Very addictive and harmful to self esteem.
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