This is going to sound really bad, but I need to vent. Hubby & I have been together for 8yrs, married 6. When we met, he had a shattered ankle. He was in pain all the time, but he managed to get things done, primarily take care of himself, clean up after himself and even do little things around the house to help me. 5 yrs & 2 accidents later, he does nothing! He sits at the computer or in a recliner watching tv. He doesn't even clean up his own messes anymore. It's like having another child living in the home. At first, I figured ok- he can do the phone calls and "secretarial" work- making Dr apts, keeping up with the boy's grades online, balancing the checkbook etc.......Nope!!!! He can't do any of that. He is VERY forgetful, even writing notes on the computer, or using a dry-erase board that we have in the kitchen to remind him of certain things, chores, Dr appts, what's going on for the day, etc...He still can't remember. We talk about things and he forgets that we agreed/disagreed on something. He'll say something to the kids and it will be the opposite of what he had told them before. I am so tired of feeling like a single mom, doing all the driving (because he can't do that anymore either) doing grocery shopping, taking the boy to karate or baseball (which I can count on one hand, how many times he has gone to show his support for his son). I don't go out with friends, & after the last time we went out together- won't be doing that again. I am always home, cleaning. I clean after him, the kids, the furry babies (we have 2 dogs and 2 cats) doing laundry, balancing the check book, even yard work; when it's not too hot ( We live in FL and have been dealing with 100*+) Intimacy is no longer a thing, so there's no release there. I can't remember the last time we were intimate or been together in such a way, that I felt loved and appreciated.
I know I married him for better or worse, sickness & in health- but this is too much for one person to handle. I hurt too. I have been Rx with Fibro, DDD, Planter Fasciitis, and a laundry list of other things. I don't know how much I can handle!
I am tired.....really tired. Thanks for reading...xoxo
First off, hello everyone! I found this forum/support group for the first time yesterday and it's been very helpful to read through other people's thoughts and experiences so thank you all for sharing.I added a journal entry to give a bit of backstory for my PEs if people are interested please feel free to read that: https://www.dailystrength.org/journals/my-pe-origin-story . I started to do it...