So my childrens father and I have been together for about 6 years. Off and on. More on than off. I get so frustrated at him because I feel like his priorities are NOT in line. We just had another falling out about this the other day. We have 2 children together. A 2 year old and a 5 month old. I just think it is time to grow up!! Alot of times I cant figure out why I am even still with him. I mean we do not live together which is mostly by my choice. If we cant get along well not living together, how foolish would I be to have my children in that type of enviroment. We have lived together twice before but honestly not since we have had children. I do everything for the children. I am a single parent in a relationship with my childrens father. It is just so frustrating. I have found myself lately finding fault with everything he does. I dont really mean too. Its just its like he has no responsibility. He can do whatever he wants to when he wants too. And doesnt think about the consequences. Dont get me wrong, I dont mind that I dont get to do what I want when I want too. My children are the most important thing to me. But when he tells his daughter he is coming to see her and dont show up until 30 minutes before bedtime because he stayed up all night with his friends makes me so mad!!! In my book when you have children, it is your responsibility to be a parent. We just had this discussion the other day and although he says he is trying, For some reason it just doesnt seem good enough for me. I guess its because we have been down this road before. He will do good for a couple of weeks then right back to the same things!... My children did not ask to be brought in this world and they definally do not deserve to be pushed to the side for something or someone else. It isnt fair to them. But my children aside its other things also. Like with the two of us, I love him dont get me wrong there but this past week of arguing has got me questioning even more am I still in love with him. Is it completly gone. Maybe its because I have put up with alot of crap these past 6 years. Alot of things i shouldnt have put up with. I find myself just wanting to fuss at him about everything almost because everything he does frustrates me so much right now. Im at the point that it wouldnt even hurt that bad if I completly broke it off. Am I crazy.. Im just not sure that Im in love with him anymore and dont know what to do about it. AHHH Thanks for letting me vent lol... I needed too...
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