It's so unhealthy and I want out. There are times I love him and I wanna make it work but there are times I actually feel like I hate him. Which is unhealthy in itself. I feel like it's holding me back from a lot of happiness and I feel like I can only DREAM of a normal, healthy, happy relationship and that it will never actually happen for me. He makes me feel stupid, he calls me stupid, he talks down on me, he's selfish, cocky, insensitive, he doesn't listen to me and things just aren't the same anymore. When we argue things often get violent and it makes me miserable. There's no romance what so ever and there never has been but I think it's starting to get to me. We don't kiss much either. But I know he loves me and doesn't want me to leave and he says he'll do whatever it takes to change but he doesn't. I feel so alone and empty inside. I definitely don't feel in love anymore. I don't know why it's so hard for me to leave.
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