i got divorced 9 years ago and since then ( and even before then) I have been continuously picking men who mistreat me and take me for granted, because I probably allow too much room for that kind of behavior.
I really wanted to get remarried but now I see that it is not going to happen, because every time I step in the same pile of crap. Just different circumstances.
I went to therapy. I read books. Nothing.
I finally meet a guy and fall in love and we have completely different views on relationships and marriage.
It is very disappointing. I think I will never learn. Now I have to find a way to fill my life with something else.
I already enrolled in college to improve my career, but it doesn’t fill the void.
Not sure if this is off-topic as a poetic waxing or on-topic as another anxiety trigger. PTSD is an anxiety disorder, after all, and my just-a-patient sense says not all anxieties are psychosomatic. Anxieties seem to be running high for all the humans I know, digitally and in real time. Daylight confusion time has the circadian rhythms in whirl of conflict with the clock consciousness of human...
I am new to this group. I lost my husband in February 2018 and I am so lost, sad, broken, lonely, etc. This site was recommended to me.