I live with a man who has been in pornography and has lied about it alot. He controls himself or should I say it seems that my presence in the house makes him control himself.

However, I find that the lying about it, the "do as if it does'nt exist attitude" does not really help me or our relationship in its intimacy.

I am very jealous because he seems to look at a particular woman alot during a social gathering or family gathering. As soon as a pretty woman comes on tv while he reads the paper, he raises his eyes.. Ok.. it should'nt be that bad, although he hardly looks at me.

We have been living together for a year, and never we made love with the lights on. But he tells me I am beautiful. I feel that I will never get his interest like these girls do.

I am not confident anymore, I have a hard time walking nude in front of him. I also feel that the tension might be a cause for not looking at me in the eyes or just looking at me pass by, like a man who loves his wife should do naturally .. Or is it my romantic side or have I seen to many movies ?

I would really appreciate any comment - maybe from men who have been into pornography and not appreciated their wife or girlfriend.

Thank you