Today I was having a pretty good day, since I was able to get up and do stuff around the house. My husband and I aren't getting along very well, though. We have been through a few bumps in the road for sure, but one of our weaknesses is that we don't communicate. I get really frusterated, and I don't know what to do. He always goes back to, "So is it that time?" That usually makes me more angry. I have many health issues, which is requiring a lot of changes, however I don't have any support. I just relocated to reconcile with my husband (we have been separated for 2 years). He says you can change what you want to eat, but I shouldn't have to change how I do things. I feel like he thinks I am doing this on purpose. I just want to be able to live past my 50's and the doctors say that if I do not take care of myself I will die young. Another thing that makes me angry is he is always saying how I have so many "issues". Ooooo, that burns me. Like I really chose to be molested by my dad, or to grow up in an abusive home. My self-esteem is not the strongest and all he is concerned about is how this is affecting him. I have very little family here and talking about all this stuff is real sinsitive for me. I know I need to get better for not only myself, but for my children too. They need me, and I will be darned if I don't fight to be here to help them along. I have a real hard time figuring out how to check my anger. Once I get to a certain plateau, it is awhile before I come down. Anyways, I just needed to vent...any tips?
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