My husband and I have been married for going on 2 years in November. We are always arguing but when we are not fighting we are the bestest friends. YEsturday he told me that sooner or later he is leaving, I know it is getting closer and closer, we have had some serious relationship problems, so much to where he has jumped out of my car on the freeway because he felt victimized by me, he bought a ticket to Florida because he was sure he was leaving last month, but then we always kiss and make up, but the fighting i getting worse, i love him so much, allot of these problems are caused from my insecurities and jeaulusy and having a mouth like a dragon, before I thought it was him only but I have come to accept responsibility for my actions theu therapy. I am working on not focusing on him so much and to continue on with what makes me happy.... not zeroing on him. I always want to work it out NOW and he needs space, that is really hard for me, I just feel like so much damage has been done that there is no more hope and this really really hurts me. I know he is unhappy with his current living environment, with his job, etc. He is from a whole different country, mioving is not an option right now, not until next spring maybe, i have been married before with 3 children and he is just spreading his wings and this makes a huge difference. I love him so much and I wish he can forgive me but I can not force him to forgive and forget. I have said some really mean nasty things to him and it is all because of my insecurities and jealousy . I am trying to become a better person and a better wife. LAst night he told me he is going to leave that he can not live like this anymore and I can be miserable all by myself. I know he is serious, these words hurt me so much, it makes me feel so worthless, he has no good thoughts about me, they are all negative. ANd i feel like it is all based on my actions. but what makes me react this way is when he hurts me and my reaction is to hurt him with my tongue a thousand times more... and i know it is wrong, . I just feel so lost right now and I dont know what I can do to make things better. He refuses to hear me, he is not willing to talk anything out. I think he doesnt want to make this work. WHat do i do??
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