this is alot to take in but its pretty serious to me. i just found someone on myspace who i havent sceen in forever. to bad he is someone i had a HUGE thing for and now i'm all bummed. i would still like to be friends. but i see him all happy with that girl- his wife. and then i think, i have a husband and a son, and i still wish that i was her. i dont know if its because of my husband and i fighting, or is it that i just dont really love him anymore? i dont know how i feel anymore. i think i love my husband, but i dont know if its because of our son together or if i really do. i always thought that if i married and was really in love i would not stop being in love, i wanted to find the right person and i dont know if i have him or if i let him pass by me. i really couldnt stop him he thought he was in love with some other girl and i was just a stupid teenager falling all over him. i was dumb and i might have scared him off.... but i am married now and still i think about this other guy. i feel soo bad thinking of other men. is this a sign i dont love him. i always took it as a sign the relationship wasnt going passed dating back in high school. are these feelings just because i didnt date more after highschool. i really wish i knew what i wanted but i guess we never do really know. i feel like i'm almost cheating on my husband when i think of my feelings for this other guy i had or still have or... god i dont know myself anymore. (hope you all dont think i'm crazy)
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