My husband and I got into a bad arguement last night because, again, he was trying to controll every aspect that went on under OUR roof and undermining what I had to say. I finally lost my temper and said that he needed to start listening to someone besides just himself and I went to bed. we ignored each other for hours, but neither of us was sleeping, finally about 1 am, I got up and said that we needed to get this thing figured out cuz I was making myself physically ill over it and with me being 37 wks (9 mos) pregnant, that's not good. He ignored me at first, so after standing there waiting for him to answer for ten minutes, I said fine I guess I'm leaving and I started to get dressed and get my stuff lined up for a night or two-I was going to go to my parents' house for a day or two. Well, after a couple minutes he came upstairs and we started argueing, I was backed against a wall cornered, like the last time we had a serious arguementand he was2 inches away screaming in my face and I was scared he was going to push me to the floor, like he did last time (In June, when I was 6 mos pregnant) , so I (Gently) extended my arm, so he was an arm-lenght away at least and said if this is the way he wants to handle things, then I'm leaving. He said if I leave him, he'll sue for custody on the grounds of my medical issues leaving me incapable of caring properly for the baby. I have Depresion, which is normally under controll, but during the pregnancy I have been unable to medicate properly and have been out of whack (Not dangerous though) and I have epilepsy, which is also for the most part, controlled during non-pregnancy, but the pregnancy has thrown my body out of whack and I've had several seizures in the past months. What do I do? I'm afraid to leave him, because I know he'll do what he threatened to do. I don't want him unsupervised with my baby after he's born. Basically, I'm trapped in this marriage and I'm scared. I'm afraid to even talk to my parents, cuz I know they'll get pissed and want to have it out with John and that'll just make things worse. The worst part is, when he pushed me to the floor in June (also later in the arguement he was less than an inch away from grabbing my throat and claimed the next day when I brought it up that he didn't remember that) I called him when I left work that night and asked him if I come home or not (I had packed and bag before I left for work and brought it with me). I made it clear that I would let it go this time but if he ever touched me like that again, I would tell everyone-parents cops ect. Everyone at my work knows about it because I came to work crying, but the only proof I have that anything went on that day is the medical report when I had to go to the Dr. the next day, because I started to have back problems, and I had a weight restriction at work for 3 or 4 days. But I told the Dr. that I fell down and John knows this, I made him go to the Dr with me so he'd have to sweat over it and so he'd feel like a shit-heel. But NOW I have absolutely no evidence that anything happened, so I wouldn't be able to use that to help my case at all and he knows that. Again, I'm trapped and I don't know where to turn and what to do, except stay in a miserable, controlling marriage and live in 18 years of fear.
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