I have a hard time putting in words what I want to say. Graves has taken away the me I have always known. I was very organized, alert, whitty, very patient, and positive until Graves. I felt like I was on top of the world, I had tons of friends and was very bright. Nothing really got me down or got in my way. Graves came into my life and changed me. I am so easily defeated, I feel anxiety and anger every day! I cry a lot and to be honest I get confused very easily. I feel cloudy headed and can only take directions if they are told very slowly. I feel like I am lesser than others around me because I am often the only one who doesn't catch on or needs to read instructions again. I type much slower and forget how to spell everything. My memory is totally shot and I feel very hopeless. People at work comment more and more that I am a dig bat and don't listen. I just want to crawl into a ball and cry. It hurts so bad but I put on a smile and laugh it off. No one knows how personally I take it. I spend each moment of my life hoping the old me will return. I am to the point where it is hard to drive because I can not concentrate and everything distracts me.I excersise all the time, eat healthy, and stay very busy to pick myself up. I have a wonderful job in sales, I own a house by the beach, have two great dogs, an amazing set of friends, family, and the best guy in the world. I have evrything but myself. Please share with me how you all deal with this and ANYTHING that has worked for you. I am determined to find a way to stop the progression of my disease. I have even considered making a career change into a feild that will help me and others live with Graves. It is eating me up and taking so much from me. I am so sad and so angry and I really need advice and help. Thank you so much!
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