Thanks so much to GammaLovesHerBabies for sending me a note asking how I've been. I told her that I had been reluctant to come back because I felt I wouldn't be honest if I didn't meant that I've slipped back into enabling. We hired an attorney to get my daughter out of jail as soon as possible, hopefully into a treatment program afterward, but we really just want her out so that the boys can see her, and because we were afraid the bio-dad would get out first and have a chance at getting the boys. Right now, though, they are both still sitting in jail, for who knows how long, although my daughter and her attorney think she will be out soon. Also, my son's wife ran off out-of-state with their children, ages 5 and 2, and I guess I will never see them again. I want to kill her for doing that and lying to us all that time, when I thought she was the one normal one in the group. And I'm angry at my son because he didn't chase her down and demand that she bring the boys back, like he could have. They haven't gotten along in a long time, and I knew divorce was probably going to happen, but she always swore she'd never cut us off from the boys. Apparently, my son doesn't care enough about being a father to make her bring them back, and I can't stand to think about any of it. I consider the boys dead to convince myself to give up any hope. My two grandsons who are still in my custody are doing fine, although the 5-year-old threatens to go live with the other grandmothers if I discipline him at all. I'm not sure how to handle that. And the other grandmothers are cut off completely at this point. Sigh. I'm stressed, guilty, and sad, but glad I have my two grandsons that I still have.
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