Well to explain a little more in detail i am helping my daughters ex raise her two children by him and she abandon her other child with her ex husband.First of all I didn't raise her like that, her Father and I have been a couple since we were 17 years old so we provided a home,work ethics and family values. She live in CA and we live In IL and she hasn't seen any of her children in the last 6 years. That bothers me a whole lot how can a person just throw her children away. I am glad that I went to get them because they had no one. The problem is I am tired I love them so much but I just can't hardly be mom to them. I am tired I did all that. I made the cupcakes,sleepovers and all the fun stuff kids need to have. This time around I can't do it. I don't let them have other kids here at my house, I do home day care and I just don't want any children here after I have worked all day. I resent that I just can't be Granny making cookies and visiting them and spoing them. What I am now is nagging clean your room, wash your clothes and homework but they don't listen so then I get angry at them and I raise my voice. I know I could be a great grandmother to these children but I am a terriable mom and that makes me depressed and I feel so sorry for them that they have no one. Now I am not saying that I would abandom them because I would never do that. I guess really I am venting I am just so tired.
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