I am 41 and have fibromyalgia..which flares up with weather changes,humidity,but mostly stress..I have custody of my grandson,2,whom I dearly love..but I am tired and need help with him,especially when he's sick, etc..I am working full time and am doing the best I can.However,it's never enough.I am strong have been through much..but am very weak right now.I have made a boss mad @ me, who already has it in for me,because I had to stay home with grandbaby who couldnt go to daycare because of virus..diah,etc.Anywho,Im struggling in every way.My boyfriend,who works 24/7,is late on all bills. I dont make enough to barely pay daycare..much less help. However, I buy groceries and pay utilities,etc..but we have more bills than $..sinking like the titanic..Went to court and childsup is hit & miss. court wont help.. My daughter who is bip..and gone more than not..is out running round w/friends and refuses to come home & keep sick baby so I can work..My son who returned from Iraq in May, is in deep depression & become alcoholic..and Lord knows what else..I cant help him..Ive done everything I know how to do..he lost his place, job, etc. Now working w/my boyfriend..but drunk when not @ work..He is sick w/flu..but after returning home from work yest..I couldnt get him to wake up.1am I got a sick feeling that he could be dead(22)..and I found all his meds..(presp by VA for dep)empty and an empty bottle of Nyquil.. and bout 30 empty beers..Finally got him to speak..but didnt have it in me to call ambulance..2 Hours later my grandson woke up screaming & sick.. I stayed up w/him till 5 am and kept him all day.. Daughter still gone..said she had to work but found out she didnt..out w/friends..Im so low.. I cant even tell you and have to go in tomorrow & face new boss who is an anal..controling well, you know.. Can someone tell me or suggest how I get out of this Hell other than the obvious?
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