I am at the point where I just want out of my situation. Problem is, I still love this guy, so much so, that I can't turn away, even when doing so may be just what he needs. He is homeless and stays with different friends day to day. Although he has a job, I am financially supporting him and it has drained me. I live at home after a disastrous living arrangement where I lived with my bf and his bf for 2 years, all the while still being intimate with him. I stuck by him in every possible way through all his bad turns. Maybe part of it is the guilt from being not the most loyal or honest bf in the first few years of our relationship. I don't know if we are soulmates, I used to feel that way, but the way things are going, it doesn't look like we can ever get things back to "normal". I feel under-appreciated because of his addiction to his friends that half the time end up hurting him more than they help. He cannot focus on his goals and I cannot focus on mine because I am constantly his net to fall in. He also blames his mother for not keeping her promises to him and uses that as his excuse about why things are the way they are in his life. I just don't know what to do, I have given him everything to help change his life and I feel powerless to make a any difference other than putting myself into more debt and more dependency on others, when that is exactly the opposite of what I need to be doing.
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