So.. I'm going out with this guy i've been with for a long time, and i went to see him today.. he must of been well horny cause he wouldn't leave me alone.. basicly we has sex.. and during, i was thinking, wtf this just feels like a chore, no fun i wasn't even turned on really, i closed my eyes and imagined he was somone else and i have no idea who right now, i dont know if it was a girl or boy.. after the sex i was thinking.. why am i not sexually attracted to him anymore (not that i really remember ever being that attracted to him) now i'm really confused.. i don't know if it's just him or all men.. am i a lesbian? If i am then why don't i try and find a girl.. i mean i know i have been but i was always looking for love.. what would sex be like with a girl? And how the hell do i tell the guy im suposed to be getting engaged to soon that im a lesbian.. he will tthink he turened me gay or somthing. My head is spinning, i have no idea what to think right now.. can somone please just help me.
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