I was talking with a friend who had just come out as a bisexual, and apparently I'm feeling a lot of the emotions and thoughts that she had went through before coming out: i.e. Am I normal? What would my parents think? Why do I feel so icky about it? etc. I've had thoughts about homosexuality before, and it seems like I'm the textbook gay case (absent father & overbearing mother, confusion), but I never really looked deeply into it because just when it seems right, I feel disgusted with myself. I feel like I'm too young to decide my sexual orientation because I'm a late bloomer and haven't developed much. I have no idea how I should take these thoughts into consideration, and I'm panicking a little: A childhood friend of mine decided she wanted to do a long-distance relationship via facebook a few months ago, and now she will be visiting in a few days. This wouldn't be so bad if she hadn't been pushing for me to try cybering. I guess what I'm saying is that I just don't feel good enough about my... "sexual abilities and appearances," so I want to wait and see what I develop into before making any big decisions. So how should I treat these feelings, and has anyone else had them before?
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