i think i cut a little too deep yesterday, iv been flushed all day, distant in class and i barely have enough energy to run in phys ed. my mom and sis are in the living room fighting, my bro is in his room crying his face out, my dad is out in Paris with his new wife not caring to call and see how his kids are and all i can do is lock myself in my room and hope to drop dead or disappear to a nicer hell than the one i live in now.and at a point like this i would be cutting but im still a woozy from yesterdays.........session. what do i do cant breath or think and i am trying not to cut iv wound up in the hospital from cutting to much twice already and not tying to go again. WHAT TO DO! WHAT TO DO! WHAT TO DO! I'M GOING CRAZY HERE!!!
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