I miss my dad. I moved with my mom this summer. My 9th to 10th grade year. My dad wans't/isn't the best dad, but no parent can be. I wasn't the best daughter anyway. My dad accepts me being a lesbian, he even said that he kinda figured it out before I did. I'm not sure if this is the right place to put this, but I need to get these things out. It kinda feels better knowing at least one person will read this. Well about a week ago my mom threatened to call my dad to have me go move back with him. Well of course he wouldn't take me even if she begged him to. She didn't call of course, she knows that he wouldn't even take me. I miss the part of my dad that would hug me when I was sad, and would tell me everything was ok, that he is there for me. Well I guess not. I'm that fucked up that he doesn't even want me. What do parents think when they don't want their children anymore? "I can have more, better children." "Well at least my other child is better than that one."
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