I had my sleve done in September of 2016. I began this journey at 280lbs. I lost 20bs over the two year course it took me to finally be ready to have the surgery. I now weigh about 200 some 8 months later. I started out very strong, taking my vitamins and drinking protien shakes however, I have fallen off the band wagon so to speak. I didn't have much support to begin with but I chose to move away from any support I had to start a new life. I have depression, as many of us do, and I find myself in long runs of "I just don't feel like it." I don't want to excercise, don't feel like cooking, or doing laundry, or cleaning, or going outside into the beautiful fresh air. I'm working with a doctor to resolve that at the moment. The bigger issue is the poor food choices I have been making. I have lived off of coffee, string cheese, and beef jerky for some time now. Recently I have evidently given myself permission to start eating fast food and other terrible non-foods like cheese puffs and sorbet. I have always struggled with self sabotage but this really concerns me. I know what I need to do and yet I don't do it. I can't imagine ever going back to the weight I was before. My long term other half liked me heavy, likes me now. There is no separation. That is concerning because although I feel this sense of unconditional love I also feel as though I could gain weight and there would be no loving intervention either. It is my job though. So, I thought trying an online support group might be helpful to get back on track. It has to be better than nothing. Thanks for reading?