I think I just need to write. I am 3 months out of surgery and I feel really down. Like i have not left the house in 3 or 4 days just dont want to. I have been posting on here a couple of times, but this is the only support group I have. My surgery was 6/9/09 and i was feeling pretty good with in a couple of weeks and now i just feel miserable. I am down lik 75 lbs. since the start of this (medifast for 6 weeks) and i know I should be happy and i know all my numbers are good for blood work ect. but I still am miserable. I was in therapy befor surgery for depression due to a back injury from 2004 that hindered me returning to work after the birth of my twins. Oh yeah did I add that part I work part time and am the full time mother of 3 1/2 yr old twins. anyway i saw my psychiotriost (did I spell that right?) like 3 months ago and i wanted to get off of some of the meds I was on ( effexor, welbutrin, trazadone) so she cut my effexor in half, I really think I want that one gone all together. But now I feel overwhelmed with work, kids, trying to eat the right foods mostly protein ( which only my son likes cause my daughter seems to think she is a vegetarian these last couple of weeks and wont eat anything. I was talking to a therapist every 2 weeks but she will not return any of my phone calls, which I have been trying to get in to see her for like 5 or 6 months. What does it say about you or the Dr.'s you are seeing when you cant even get them to call you back? I am sorry this is so long nut I really have no one to talk to. I have 1 other friend that has been thru this and I cant even really talk to her because she turned into a lying alchoholic after her surgery, surely dont want that influence lol. I cry all the time and am so stressed out i do not know what to do. I don't want to even eat cause it just seems like too much work. I do not crave food at all and I am just not hungry, I have all I can do to make sure my kids are eating lol. And to top it all off I am suppose to be packing up the rest of my house to move from NY to NC in October, see what i mean STRESSSSS! Again I am sorry this is so long and I dont care if you guys dont respond I just needed to vent somewhere ya know? I do not know if this group is suppose to be just to rant but I just feel so messed up right now I just dont know what to do. Sorry this is so long I feel like I am writing a novel but thought at least typing it would help me feel a little better. Thanks for listening.
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