Can a spouse/significant other/family member REALLY get our new lifestyle (food, emotions, breakdown, moody food blues, changes) if they've never lived it? Is just buying the food being supportive enough? Is it just supportive enough that you have to corner them literally into listening to you and breaking down into hysterical tears and feeling like death is better then what you endure some days...but you ride it out for a brighter day cuz you couldn't do that to your family. Can my husband ever really get it? I'm sorry, I'm venting. I'm just so fed up. We're fighting over petty things, I'm breaking down wanting to go out with him cuz I feel prettier, and he doesn't wanna take me out and I take that personally and he's always got an excuse as to why we can't from this to that...it's always something. He's making future living arangements with his dad (we take over his house and they build new in like 20 years or something) and they don't include me and I feel like an outcast no matter what I do to involve myself I feel like the child around here, not like the adult or wife. I try and no one will treat me like an adult anymore. I break down so often crying, a few times a week at least, I get angry and irritable badly and take it out on Carl no matter how hard I try not to, the doctors keep putting more and more Klonopin on top of me to counteract this leg tremor I have in both legs and it doesn't help, they up it to help me sleep and it doesn't work and I'm sick of the same med changes and them never working and them not working for me. I'm so tired of thinking of what pills I can take to just get a break, but fighting it because I know better and that's not the answer to the problem either. I feel the need for a respite bed (a step down from hospitalization, similar to a gorup home only there are only 2 beds in this one) and I'm just fed up with everything right now, feeling overwhelmed right now and feel alone in coping. I talk in therapy, and I'm doing my very best to cope with the skills I do, but I'm running on "E" right now and am unsure how to go about coping now. I bought yogurt, pudding, fruits (various) so I've got some healthy options to turn to for my meals. I'm doing my best with my diet. I fell off the wagon for two days again but I'm back on track and doing okay again. Please help! I feel lost and alone. Anyone understand any of this mess? Anyhone relate?
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