This is somewhat related to post recently made but I have been struggling these last few days with bad thoughts about my spouse of almost 29 years. I love him dearly and yet I am angry at him for so many things he isnt even aware of and I am questioning my relationship with him. Yeah I know counciling and maybe I will do that or maybe this will pass but here i go: I feel so alive and full of energy and want to do so many things, he is very overweight and was suppose to have this surgery when i did but backed out (another subject for another post). My issue is his total lack of energy, he doesnt want to do anything with me and i mean anything. I on the other hand want to do everything and yes I mean that fun stuff that couples should like to do. Granted we are closer to the age of 50 and i guess (so I am told) that men can "slow" down in that dept but what sucky timing. I have been going to the gym more just to work off my frustrations and now i am looking at other men in a way i shouldnt be (guess i need to go to confession). I am so disappointed in him and i know he senses it. I ask him to come to the gym, most times he does but its like pulling teeth. Am i wrong for feeling like this, i am bored out of my mind, i want to take Salsa dance classes with him, no way will he do that, i want to go hiking he cant keep up, i want i want i want, bla blah blah. Just venting, i do love him i have been with him since i was 16 and he never NEVER made me feel bad about my being overweight always made me feel sexy and now that i feel that way he wont come near me, go figure.
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