I'm 4 months post-op now. I'm just curious to those of you who have "been there done that", how much of a normal routine you resumed. I do have some mental health problems, mainly the bipolar disorder (rapid cycling) and dysthymia (low grade ongoing depression). Half the time I'm doing well now, on the ball, keeping up with everything life throws at me, but then, like today, I was so unbelievably tired and I couldn't function. Before the evening was up, my stomach was a ball of nerves and talking to Carl made me realize how useless I feel because ten years ago I was so functional, so good at working and keeping my house together, and now I can only keep my house together half the time, and some of that time I'm reduced to tears, like I was tonight. I get so confused at where I should be at 4 months in functioning. The hormones drive me nuts and trigger my rapid cycling moods. I ate off my food plan tonight. It was emotional eating. I didn't eat too much, reasonable portion size, but it still isn't acceptable that I allowed myself to fall into the old habits. Breakfast is my next meal now and I'll resume my food plan at that point. Over night it's Crystal Lite. But, where should I be in level of functioning? I feel like I'm so far off only keeping my house together half the time and being reduced to tears about once a week or so now. I'm going insane and feel like I'm not doing well enough. I am going to have to accept the help of a home health aide again and that has me so disappointed in myself. Any idea of what level I should be able to function at would be appreciate. I feel lost. And disappointed with myself.
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