I can't do this anymore. I am realizing more and more that inside, I try to bend my opinion and actions to what he wants, no matter how against the grain it is for me. I have started to stand up, only to be shot down. Now the ultimate and I don't know if I'm strong enough to withstand this. I don't know how to leave. After 16 years, how do I walk out, taking my children's daddy away? I feel like I would be walking out on my future I've built. I am finally somewhat secure (financially). I don't want to go back to barely affording rent and therapy and everything...and now with two kids. I feel like this is just one more way that he has trapped me. I don't know what to do.
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