Today I went to counseling for gambling and I'm glad that I'm going. I go to GA however I feel that there is only so much that GA can do and that counseling adds an additional dimension. I want to deal the all the emotions from the aftermath of gambling. One thing that concerns me is that I have been able to stay away from gambling for almost three months now and I'm starting to think "I'm cured". The cravings to go gamble are almost non existent. I stay away from the casinos and I don't tempt myself, or go near them, to find out if I can gambling or not. It doesn't matter to me if I can gamble or not gamble. I don't want to gamble anymore. I don't want that life anymore. I feel I hit bottom and the fear of every going to that place again has been enough to keep me from gambling. I saw what it did to my life and I don't want to go to that painful miserable place again. Does that mean I'm powerless? I don't know. Can a person just will themselves to stop gambling? According to GA we can't but I often feel like I did. The reason it's so important to know if I'm powerless is that my GA sponsor told me that unless I can admit complete powerless then I won't be able to work the rest of the steps. He told me that step one is the only step that has to be worked to 100% perfection. So now that I'm having doubt about my "powerlessness" I don't know if I can continue to work the steps. I'll talk to my sponsor about it. I know I am not unique and that others have had the same experience and I would like to hear what you have to say. Anyway I'm glad that I have given up gambling and that I have started to go to counseling. Best wishes with your recovery.
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