My husband and I have been together for ten years, married for a almost a year. We have been together since high school and since then he has been my whole world. About three weeks ago he left me this long letter confessing things he had done in the past and he took off to Colorado for a few days to think about things. He did not want to lie to me anymore and wanted to work on our relationship and to better his life. He had won $83,000 about a year and a half ago, and failed to tell me he had lost it all until the letter. For the whole summer before we got married he was pretending to go to work while he was gambling, using drugs, and doing other things. I have been working part time and have been charging things on my credit cards, believing we were living a lifestyle we could afford. When he was working he made a decent living, and we did have enough money in savings to have everything we needed plus some of the things we wanted. He came home after a couple days, and agreed to work on things, and that he wanted to be honest with me from now on. A few days later, I receive a text message- he had quit his job and taken off to Tunica to play poker. It has now been 5 days... I am a compete mess. He tells me that poker is not gambling... that he has a "gift" and that he has no reason to leave Tunica. It does not matter to him that he has a life here. It just hurts so bad, the man I have been with since I was 15 years old, just up and leaves me, telling me that he has made a lifestyle choice. I know he is in complete denial. He does not think quitting his job and leaving me to play poker is a problem. Whenever I do talk to him he is so cold and cruel and laughs and calls me crazy when I tell him he has a problem. He has no regard for how I feel or how I am doing... knowing that I am in a very poor emotional state. This was all just such a shock, I had no idea, I feel like such a fool. I feel I don't even know him anymore. I am so devistated it is hard to even get out of bed. I know he needs to hit rock bottom before he realizes what he is doing, but isn't quitting his job and jeopardizing his relationship with his wife not rock bottom? So as he "quits" his life, I am stuck here all alone trying to figure out how to handle this. He has been my best friend and the love of my life for 10 years, and he just threw it all out the window to play poker. I am also going to be struggling financially, all my credit cards are maxed out, and even working full time I do not make enough money to pay the bills, let alone have anything left to live off of. I just need to find the strength to go on. Has anyone else gone through this? I would love to be able to talk to someone that understands. I just want my life back.
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