Wow, I haven't been to a casino in 4 months. I am suddenly having alot of troubles. I have been through all I can and I know quitting Smoking and Gmabling at the same time was going to be a challenge. I am good with the smoking but this gambling thing comes back in my mind. I don't dare try to buy a scratch off to substitute the casino and online gambling either as that will make it another outlet but man this is hard. I actually printed directions to a casino in PA this morning and am thinking of going because I had myself banned from NY. I hope this urge passes because I feel I don't have control and I keep saying I deserve to have fun, Play the machine for fun. But this Fun I like so much can be so Expensive and Controlling. I can't find happiness in other activities WHY?? I feel so Lost at times. Gambling Money gave me the urge to make more money with work. Now I make hardly any . I have no urge to do anything.
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