I need everyone's support to keep myself on track. I have recently made the decision to commi, to GETTING MY LIFE BACK. I want to get back to the way things used to be--only better, the one that didn't have to struggle with the gambling addiction. I want to regain my self worth, get back into my family, do the things that used to bring me so much pleasure and joy, take care of me like I used to do. I make a good living, I used to enjoy what I do for a living, but right now, all I can think about is the next payday, which is Monday, (every Monday). I want to feel good about myself again, and this is the place and time in my life to 'start over'. They say you have to hit rock bottom, and be sick and tired of being sick and tired. That pretty much describes how I am, and the point that I have gotten to in my life. One day at a time for me, means 5 minutes at a time for me right now. I really want to stop, but I am so afraid that I won't be able to do it.
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