I can't stop gambling!
I'm not sure where to begin, My gambling has destroyed my life. I declared bankruptcy several years ago after taking several thousand dollars in cash out of credit cards to gamble with. My parents died 5 years ago and left me about 80,000 now its gone. I went to the casino last night at 7PM and left this morning at 7:30 AM lost another 1000. I feel sick! But in a day or two I will feel better and find myself at the casino again. Im wondering if I will be able to pay my house payment this month. I hate myself after a night of gambling but can't stop. I always say "that was the last time" but it never is. I really don't have anyone to turn to. It is effecting my work and my health. I sort of just curl up for a day and hide for awhile untill I feel better. I wish casinos were never allowed here. I know it's my fault and my responsibility, I just want my life back. This is hard for me, I never ask for help. I honestly don't know what to do. I have shut most people out of my life and have hidden this problem from everyone. Please tell me how to start stopping, where to begin. Thank You