I can't stop I am at a point where I haven't lost everything but trust me I am heading down that path. I try to stop but can't go a couple days or weeks then right back into the same old rut. I am boared with life hoping it will help to gamble but that just makes me feel worse. It is stupid I know it but can't control it. I get so down I feel like just calling it quits. This is just crazy at how much contol this has over me. I am a very strong person both mentally and physically but this has got me in its grips.
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