I am hoping I am not going crazy...I have been free of my addiction since 9/21...and, feel worse than I ever have. I do not feel that I am making any milestones here..I am anxious, short tempered and soooo emotional. I do however, feel fortunate that I do NOT have the urge to gamble..but, emotionally..I am a mess. Is thsi the norm? I am petrified that I am going to spiral out of control without intending to do so. I have take the following steps..I have been seeing a Therapist in ref. to gambling addictions, I have been put on Xanex due to an emergency room visit due to my BP being 214/114..my BP has ALWAYS been perfect..this is due to the state I have thrown myself into to..the guilt, the remorse, the time I have stolen from my family and the financial state of what I have lost. I I finally made an appt. w/ my Dr and when she prescribed the xanex..she actually asked me if I was suicidal.....all, I could do is well up w/ tears, Please tell me this is the norm when the vicious cycle of gambling stops and we begin to purge,or perhaps, live in reality. Is this the reason why the world of gambling grabs hold???? Because we can simply concentrate on the next trip to the casino...rather than life and the horrible person we have become and the loved ones we have destroyed by hurting them?
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