hello friends, I was pretty optimistic several months ago that i can tackle this addiction head on but i was right where i started yet again, i have relapsed. I went to the casino again right after christmas and ive been going every weekend since and lost about $2k now, my latest was yesterday. Im gonna try again not to go this weekend but im feeling very disappointed on my self right now. I feel so blessed with my career right now and yet im squandering all my savings. I feel im gonna lose it all soon. I just hope ill be able to stop in time.
I am constantly amazed that with mindfulness and gratitude as my main tools I continue to get better. I quit smoking cigarettes over a year ago sparked by a heart attack. Three stents and 15 months later, I have had two normal EKGs and no longer need to take antiplatlet drugs. I am now contemplating giving up my 2-3 beers 3-4 nights per week, because, frankly, when I pay attention to how it...
I’ve been flying around in my head for the past couple of weeks. It’s like feeling a little bit crazy, I guess you could say. I’m okay, at least today I know I’m okay and grateful for that.Now I just feel old and silly for posting my craziness! But you know what? I’m not gambling, so I count all my crazy days in recovery as good ones.