One year! I was so busy doing life things that it almost slipped by for me unnoticed. Almost. February 23rd is my younger brother’s b-day, and my nephew’s, too. Both born on the same day and the same year. Pretty incredible, huh? Both now 45 yrs old, I wish! I’m 17 yrs older than both, I’m 62, not gonna make you do the math! lol
Anyway, yeah, one year, for me, without placing a bet. I don’t have the desire to gamble, but I know I must stay diligent. I’m no longer gambling because I’m in a place I call recovery. Many, many times I think about how I use to react to my emotions by gambling, making everything harder than it had to be. If I was hurt I’d escape and hurt myself some more. Mad-self harm. Stressed-self harm. Gambling can be a form of self harming, for me that’s exactly what it ended up being. I’m tired of hurting myself, hey, I’m 62! Hahahaha
one yr one day @a time
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