One year! I was so busy doing life things that it almost slipped by for me unnoticed. Almost. February 23rd is my younger brother’s b-day, and my nephew’s, too. Both born on the same day and the same year. Pretty incredible, huh? Both now 45 yrs old, I wish! I’m 17 yrs older than both, I’m 62, not gonna make you do the math! lol
Anyway, yeah, one year, for me, without placing a bet. I don’t have the desire to gamble, but I know I must stay diligent. I’m no longer gambling because I’m in a place I call recovery. Many, many times I think about how I use to react to my emotions by gambling, making everything harder than it had to be. If I was hurt I’d escape and hurt myself some more. Mad-self harm. Stressed-self harm. Gambling can be a form of self harming, for me that’s exactly what it ended up being. I’m tired of hurting myself, hey, I’m 62! Hahahaha
one yr one day @a time
A few days ago I had one of those days where the urge was overwhelming to gamble & I succumbed to the feelings. It was absolutely awful. I am sad and disappointed in what happened. Fortunately it was before pay day & I had cancelled my check cashing account at the casinos & I don't have an ATM card so I couldn't get any more money than what I had in my wallet. I played, I won & played until I...
I've been in recovery for about 5 1/2 months now. That 6 month key-chain is right around the corner at GA which I'm excited about.Throughout my recovery my wife has been tremendously supportive. However, I have not (and don't plan to) open up about my struggles with friends or family (another topic for another day). But because of this, it's important to utilize the tools and resources that are...