There I was cruising through my late 20s not a care in the world. I took the opportunity to become a traveler in the healthcare industry. My first assignment landed me minutes away from a huge casino in Cali.
I had gambled before in Las Vegas, but I was more interested in being with my friends and keeping my money more so than the gambling. While on my first travel assignment, I even had a trip to Reno with a friend, lost a small amount, but didn’t think too much of it. I lived within minutes of this huge casino (the Cali one) for 7 months before ever stepping foot inside. Not sure what the answer is on why I got so hooked, but when it got me, it got me good.
Fast forward three years later and I’m stuck in the same endless cycle that started in that first casino. I have moved home to a state with no casinos, but unfortunately one is still only two hours away.
The absolute worse thing about gambling is how it sucked the life out of me. I’m not the same person I was three years ago. All the normal excitement of life has disappeared. Nothing excites me except a trip to you no where. The depression episodes are rough. I’m seeking a psychiatrist to try and get my life back. Anyone out there seek psychiatric help post gambling addiction? Any insight would be greatly appreciated.
This time of year can be "slippery" for me. I'm starting to feel vulnerable because of the strong feelings and memories, both joyful and sad, that always come up around the holidays, not to mention the extra stress from the out-of-control consumerism, unrealistic expectations, crowds, traffic, etc all around me as the season ramps up. I'm posting to remind myself to breathe and remember that...
I am feeling sorry for myself tonight. Yes, i went on a bender at the casino and lost our last $200. I am 43 and have no money. I have two kids, who have tons of stuff, nice clothes, don't need for anything. I just hate that it's another Christmas that i don't think I'll bother with a tree as i can't afford it and there is nothing to put under it. My husband has had a trucker license the last...