Remember, we are still here for you, as we would hope you would be for us. lol hugs

I would have to say no, you are not at square one. You have gone 46 days without gambling. That is not where you were when you first quit. Every day that you are GF counts! Your life is better every day that you don't gamble, therefore everyday counts!

You are not back at square one by any means. I went for about 4 months without gambling. I then had a slip. I said and thought all of the things you are. I am now more than 90 days from that slip. I called it, I was back to square 2. When I did have the slip, I did not enjoy myself, those awful feelings came back and it really drove it home that I did not want gambling to be part of my life. You did an amazing thing, you didn't gamble for 46 days. You are on the road to recovery and this was a bump. What you didn't do, is hide from what you did-you came right back here, got it out, that takes guts. Don't beat yourself up, you are on the right path. We are here for you.

I agree with Purple Cat and Emma 12, this was just a bump in the road, its done, its over, time to move begin forward motion again. You can do this. Every day that we don't gamble is a day that we can rejoice, and every day that we don't gamble counts!

((( Auzqurl )))
Definitely Not Back At Square One. No One Can Take Those Days Away From You. Try To Remember The Good Days When You Weren't Gambling And Build From There. Got Get On The Recovery Wgaon And Grab A Seat In The Middle This Time. That Way When You Hit A Bump You Will Have Another CG To Grab Onto. Will Send You Some Info On Relaspe Prevention.
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Thank you all for your thoughts.
I have realised this journey I my own i own it. Every step is a learning curve, whether good or bad. It is my choice today and for a lifetime not to gamble.

You didn't park the car, get out and quit driving for the first bump in the road you hit. You didn't quit trying to walk the first time you fell. Pat yourself on the back 46 days is AWSOME!! Maybe mark this down as chapter 2 in the road to recovery? Get back in the car and drive it like you OWN IT!!!!!!!!!!!

i say you're not at square one because right now you're feeling guilty for breaking your record. this is a good sign. a sign that you are truly ready and willing to move on from the misery.

We are all jut oe bet away from gambling again, learn from your slip were you HALT? Hungry Angry Lonely Tired? Try to learn from the slip, and go forward. There is no changing yesterday.

You don't need to do this perfectly... mistakes are okay. You can never go back to square one as you have already made progress. Keep up the good work and focus on the gamble free days. Good luck.

I would say you stopped gambling 47 days ago and 46 of those were gamble free. You can't take away the 46 days you didn't gamble, they happened, you were free. You slipped, so 1 of 47 you didn't win, the other 46 you did. You can do this, remember just one day at a time. Don't concentrate so much on the days, just tell yourself from now on you don't want gambling to be a part of your life. Love ya.

You are not at square one. You were testing yourself. We are all human and no one is perfect. I am sure it was a good reminder of why you stopped. Casinos spend millions on trying to get the party,fantasy thing going on when you are there-as long as you are back on track, that is all that really matters. Look forwards-always!!