Well I made it 3 days before the first slip up. My wife went to work, and my daughter was taking a nap. I downloaded one of my favorite poker sites again with the intension of doubling up and cashing out. The same pattern for me again, $300 buy-in and build it up to $700 and NOT cash out. Go over the top of an opponents reraise with nothing and lose it all, go on tilt and rebuy for $300, go all in on a hope and a prayer and lose again. It really sucks to not be able to trust yourself. Thought I could really cash out this time and stick to my plan. I'm fooling my self, I have repeated this pattern over and over and over again. Its never going to be enough money to cash out, I will always end up wanting a little more. So here is to another new gambling free start, one hour so far and counting. This is the hardest thing I have had to do in life so far, I've really never been an addict in life. I appreciate your kind words and encouragement in my first post. I need to do this for me and my family, I want to succeed. Any ideas or suggestions about what you all do when you feel the urge to gamble? Activities or hobbies or such that you all do when you really want to gamble? Thank you all and lets stay strong together.
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