On June 16,2006 my family was attacked in our sleep by a girl who had been staying with friends a few houses down from us. My oldest daughter, Yolanda was killed in the attack. It has been 2 long years that her murderer has been sitting in jail. Her attorney kept postponing the trial month after month. We have heard from the district attorney that the trial should start on August 14. My youngest daughter and I moved out of state after this happened. Now we will be traveling back to CA. I have been able to cope lately without any major problems, but since I heard from the D.A., I have been crying a lot again. We have been trying for two years to put this thing behind us and now it will be brought back up again. I want to be there for my family and do what I need to do in order to put this person away for as long as possible. If she ever gets out, she could go to some other stanger's house and do it all over again. I just don't look forward to it. It is going to be the first time since just after it happened that all 3 survivors will be there and talking about it again. I hate thinking about my granddaughter and youngest daughter going through it again. I have never looked at the coroners report and have not discussed the details of my daughter's death with any of the detectives on the case. I can't bear to know everything she went through. That will all be brought up in court. How can I be strong and help the others through this when I feel like I am going to fall apart?
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