Hi all - My daughter who is 22 years old and lives with me is angry at me and it is killing me inside. It is as if I am loosing another child. The timing of her brothers death (6 weeks ago) is very difficult for her. She is in the process of planning her wedding in July. Her brother and she were very close and there was no sibling rivalry; he was suppose to walk her down the aisle. We went yesterday to pick a wedding dress. The day was especially hard for me because it was my birthday. I had told her that the day was going to be a difficult one for me regardless and that the timing of her appointment wasn't a good idea. She however, insisted that we keep the appointment. I found myself in such sorrow yesterday - the prospect that my daughter would be moving so far away with my 3 year old grandson topped off with the loss of my son was to much to handle in one day - a day that I didn't even want to acknowledge. I felt guilty for having a birthday when my son would have no more. My daughter got very angry at me when we got home and said I was selfish for not being happy or smiling during the Wedding dress appointment. She rescinded her invitation to take me to a movie for my birthday and left the house with a friend. I am so hurt but I also know that she is hurting. How do I pretend not to be sad for her sake?????
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