I read some of your stories on Firefly1960s post "Please tell your story". I have been coming to this site for several years now and I know I would not have been able to get through as well as I have if not for the wonderful moms who were already here when I got here. I still remember how I felt the day I discovered this site. I never thought I would be able to smile again. Nothing made any sense to me. My world was grey, no color. I cried every time I thought of that night and every time I remembered anything about Yo. I slept all the time and could not hold a conversation. I would forget what I was saying in the middle of a sentence. I remember one of the moms telling me that it was all normal and I would be ok. I know now that she was right. Don't get me wrong, you never "get over" losing your child. You always have bad days and sad days. But they get fewer and farther between. We have to learn to live a new normal in a world without our kids. But eventually you will find yourself smiling at a memory of your child. You will see the colors coming back into your world. Until then, cry when you feel like it, sleep when you need to and scream and yell when you can't take another minute. Tell your family and friends to watch out and not take offense, it isn't directed at them. Your body will tell you what you need to do. You will grieve as long as it takes and your grief will change with time. But you will be ok. hugs j
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