I have been battling something for awhile now that I have never talk about before to anyone on here.(I don't think I have anyway?)I went to see a new Therapist today I do believe I'm going to like her. she has children (the other did not and I just didn't feel it with her) OK when my son died he was at a friends house and his friend found him the next morning sitting in his car I do know that he died due to an accidental overdose I got the corners report. I believe that my husband and my friends even Josh's friends are keeping some of the details of the night before he died from me.I have ask all of them and I think they are trying to save me from more "hurt" but after the Funeral I started asking what was he doing sitting in his car? why did someone give him a sandwich? what do you mean he had jerk a few times that night? because this is what was told to me here and there. I have been wanting to go and ask for the police report I have mention this a few times to others and they say well Tammy just be prepared for whats in there and you do know there's pictures also. So today when I mentioned this to my Therapist she said I should really think about it and make a decision to either do it or let it go. and that this may or may-not be a stepping stone to heal! so could maybe you all just give your opinion on what you would do. Thanks
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