Hey guys, I have been horrible with eating! I do so well & then one thing goes wrong & not only do I get completely thrown off track but with each time it's actually worse!!! I can't believe I'm doing this to myself. I want so badly to be skinny, nothing extreme, a healthy skinny. I notice thin people all the time & I get so depressed. They seem so happy & carefree & I feel like I'm in a bubble which I'm only trapping myself in. So you would think this would help me to stop eating like it's my last day of food. I'm not even hungry yet I CAN NOT STOP EATING!!!!!! I really need help. I can't fit into my big clothes & don't have the money to buy bigger clothes. Besides that, it wouldn't be smart anyhow to allow myself to fit into even bigger clothes. AHHHhhhh!!!! I can't stand this. I'm seriously going into a depression over this. Today, I went to Chick-Fil-A & after I ate it at home, I put all my "evidence" in like 5 plastic shopping bags so my fiance' wouldn't find it. I can't believe it's come down to this. I sit down with my food in front of me, all excited to eat it then I feel so guilty & gross & then I have to hide everything so I don't blow my cover... When I sit down, I always have a pillow in front of me because my big stomach is so obvious, and when I stand up I can no longer suck in my stomach OH AND... I have a double chin now. K, think I'm gonna go cry now..
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