I wake up EVERY day thinking today is gonna be the day when i start over. Im going to start eating healthy. Last night i over ate so much i feel like shit..I dont want to feel like that any more. Then when it comes to meal time it all starts over again. It seems its never going to end. A few good days of trying just seems pointless.. I just cant stop. But i want to so bad. I had a shitty xmas. didnt want to be around food. Recieved xmas chocolate and had to throw it out so i wouldnt have it around. So today i sit here alone, thinking what is the point of my life having to struggle like this everyday. When i know i do it to myself. I am so full so i started to drink...Hoping i drink enough alcohol i get sick, and get rid of this poison(food) i have in my body.
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