Okay perhaps I've hit the rock bottom of I dont care anymore!!! Im so angry right now!!! Im so freakin tired of doing so well for so many days and then just throwing it away! And of course once I do that..to get back on track is just too much. I just cant do it not right away. NO NO I must binge for at least 4-5 days until Im so disgusted with myself that I can't even look at myself in the mirror. Then and only then its restricting... until I lose it again.. why even bother anymore. There is nothing I can think of to tell myself come tomorrow morning that will make any thing better. Maybe I can try again for another 12-14 days until the next week that it all just falls apart. I cant handle anymore failing and trying. This endless circle is making me crazy!! I just dont know what to think anymore. Any advice would be great.
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