Food Addiction Support Group
An individual suffering from a food addiction disorder frequently experiences episodes of uncontrolled eating, or binging, during which they may feel frenzied or out of control. They will eat much more quickly than is normal, and continue to eat even past the point of being uncomfortably full. Binging in this way is generally followed by a period of intense guilt feelings...
okay well i definitely just had a splurge moment and i'm writing in here trying to convice myself I won't be fat in the morning. Because, logically, I know that I won't. But the food addicted, body-conscious, eating disorder side of me is whispering in my ear "you messed up big time, you're going to regret this so bad tommorrow."
I think what scares me most is that it really wasn't THAT bad of a binge. Half an order of a chinese takeout dinner (split with my roommate), half a chocolate chip milkshake, and a little popcorn. i mean, that's not really a splurge just a very high calorie, high fat meal thaat I wouldnt normally eat. I know I sound ridiculous but I can't help but feel awful inside.
It's okay. It's okay.
I think what scares me most is that it really wasn't THAT bad of a binge. Half an order of a chinese takeout dinner (split with my roommate), half a chocolate chip milkshake, and a little popcorn. i mean, that's not really a splurge just a very high calorie, high fat meal thaat I wouldnt normally eat. I know I sound ridiculous but I can't help but feel awful inside.
It's okay. It's okay.
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I have been here before, a long long time ago and now I am back.Forgive me for not just saying what I want to say,even under a triple dose of antidepressants it is still raw and seeping and I am hesitant at revealing it as at least under the bandages around my heart I don,t have to look at how raw and wounded.My child was cleaved from my heart by his own actions. my child of ten,turning eleven...
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theatre and I are there already. I'm having a very berry tea with crackers, cheese and cherry tomatoes and she's having a joint with some beer and we're both on really comfy recliners on thick pile carpet. we need some help with the decor if anyone is around??
It is so hard sometimes. We have these fully rational beings inside of us who can't seem to connect with the emotional beings on the other half of our psyche. Logic goes out the window.
Just take it one step at a time and do the best that you can with it.
Tell your ED to piss off!!!!
Keep battling and telling yourself that it is okay to eat like this once in awhile, because it is. Eventually, your logic will win out. I am coming out of a 25 year battle with food issues/EDs and alot of times it is just a case of mind over matter. It takes time, but you can begin to think normally about food again.
Hang in there, hon!!
and Marah - i have often thought the same thing. i'm just looking for something to feel bad about; something i can beat myself up about. it's like there is a part of me that thinks i need to be brought down 'a peg or two'.