Eventhough I'm not very overweight, I considere myself a food addict. I've suffered from anorexia and bulimia before, and now I feel I'm heading back towards bulimia and overeating.
Since I was a child, I saw myself as big. I really wasn't, but when you as a child feel abnormal, it is hard to ever feel ok with whatever you have problems with. So my problem was food. I didn't overeat much, but I remember I tried not to eat so much, and other times I couldn't help myself stop munching.
In 7th grade I gradually began to eat less. Didn't thought much about it, it felt as something I had to.
At middleschool, I really didn't eat. I lost a lot of weight, but when my parents threatened my about hospitalization, I slowly began to eat again. But inside me, my eating habits are forever broken.
I began to have some cravings. First, on fridays. Then fridays and wednesdays. And saturday and sunday was ok too. then I found out that I could throw the food up. At the end of middleschool, I developed bulimia. when I had eaten too much, I excercised and/or threw up.
Today, at my last year of high school, I don't starve myself or throw up anymore. I felt healthy some months ago, feeling I controlled the food, and not that the food controlled me.
Anyways..... I began to realize that food still is a problem. I think a lot about it. I often feel bad. I've gained weight during high school, and I really want to lose it, but I just end up craving.
Because I crave food. I need my dose of food, to loose myself in consumption of food. I feel free. I feel free from all the rules and the strict regimes, from all the hate and all the bad feelings I've felt about food since I was a little child.
food is alsoa way to deal with feelings. I eat to celebrat+to loose control, so I can relaxe in my head, not thinking about food,even only for some minutes
I'm glad I realized I actually have an addiction.-FOOD IS MY ADDICTION, AND I HATE IT.
I will try to stop eating those products I binge on. Chocolate and bread and other foods with a lot of starch gonna be the beginning.
In long term, my goals is to get back my healthy, happy weight, eat fruits, veggies, grains and good proteins. I will not have cravings, and if I have, I have learned a way to deal with it.
Food addiction is really hard, because you can't just quit eating, like a smoker can quit sigarettes. So from now on, I have some short term goals:
1) Eat proper meals. That means breakfast, lunch and dinner.
2) If I eat between meals, then I eat healthy snack. And when I snack, I snack in a stable state of mind. If I am upset, I will call my friends and we can talk, and then I can go for a walk with my friends on my phone.
3) I don't eat chocolate. Instead, I eat grapefruit or kiwis or tea.
Hope you will support me, this is gonna be hard. :(
My apologies if this is the wrong group, but I couldn't find one for coffee addicts. This is a serious addiction, but when I asked my doctor for help, he just laughed it off. It took exactly one year for me to slowly reduce caffeine intake. Headaches, need another fix, insomnia, shaking in the morning craving another cup - I had it all. Just wonder if anyone else here has it.
Hi alli am new at this group ! I am an over eater addicted to foodhave battles this since 14 yrs old I am now in my sixtiesI just want to be healthy and get some of this weight off my old bones stayred healthy eating on April 2 it’s been hard but I really try to eat healthyive only lost 6 pounds but trying to keep a positive attitudethanks for reading